Our love affair...

it all started with a nite-out in a bar. i was tempted to go with you because i was feeling lonely during that time as i'm missing "him." that night, i really enjoyed your company & it somehow diverted my thoughts away from him. but it was a night that made our story and leave us to what we are to each other until now...

i can't recall what happened after that. things just happened so fast. i just knew you became my other source of happiness every time he was away from me. it made me weak as i gave in to my emotions and let you feel the need in me to be wanted, to be loved & to be cared for by another man who is so willing to do it for me. although it was hard for me to succumb to temptations, yet i feel drawn to your ways and means. my resistance was overcame by my weakness every time you were near me. you had shown me passion and love that i never expected from a guy like you.

but sometimes, reality checks in that's why i would always break off with you hoping that after so many times of doing it, you will finally come to realize that ours is only a thing out of passion and maybe lust. i never said that i truly love you as you knew that my heart belongs only to him. i just wanted us to be there for each other when we need comfort or company, a friend for convenience...

but why is it until now, you are so determined to win me back and still hope that i will also love you the way you loved me... you always say it's because of destiny. but destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice. and we have this choice to forget each other, to break free from what we have done and to let go of our feelings.

it is only in our minds that we cling to what we wanted to feel. it dictates us to do things that we should not do. that's why we are bound to be tempted beyond our self-control. but if we should stay away from each other and try very hard to think straight, then maybe we could overcome all of this...

time and again, our paths may cross but ours is still an affair not intended to last coz it never meant to be... both of us are already committed and that's a fact that we cannot just change.....